時間,時間.

時間令我們多神傷呐。

Miss u, From The Out of Space.

 


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我作了很多很多的夢，通常是一整天那樣長度的夢。

然後我盡量不去想一些我好喜歡的人事物。

我用了五天的時間哼著同一首歌。

所以感覺活在夢裡的時間也越來越多了。

其實我覺得我越來越不穩定了有時候很危險所以我有時候有點害怕。

但不是現在。

不過也差不多了。



我只有三個瞬間滿想落淚的。

1.我想到所有人事物都不會永遠是最美好的樣子。

2.還有某天下午的日落。

3.拍團體照的時候我想到以後我可能會跟我兒子講說你看這是你爸的時候，所以在三二再來一的時候我還是忍不住作了鬼臉也用手比了山羊角。



不過也差不多了。

所以誰是鄭乙心

　　　　

　　

　　　　　　

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「11 2 23 12 4 5 6 7788 9」

於是我逼自己睡著而又進入了另一個夢中夢>>>>>>>>>

途中不斷不斷的失控以及失控，

想說的話都被卡在喉嚨打出的文字也是無法控制的混亂。

「11 2 23 12 4 5 6 7788 9」

夢中的思考是清晰的目標是明確的，

我不斷不斷的尋找妳進而試圖讓妳知道卻又不斷失敗。

情感是充滿著所有身體的甚至就快要溢出到無法負荷的程度，

但我依然處於極度的恍惚以及在心底非常迫切希望的狀態。

mess的留言：

「依你現在的狀況什麼事都做不好，最好的辦法就是先睡一覺。」

然後我帶著感覺遲鈍的身體閉上眼睛而又進入另一個夢中夢>>>>>

我躺在空房間的地上渾身溼透不停抽搐，

我大叫著救我但同時心底其實興奮難耐，

無法控制身體不斷流出眼淚喊不出聲音，

直到有個偷窺似的白種女人見到我將我抱到床上，

並朝著門外衝出邊喊著：

「Doctor！！Doctor！！」

「...................。」

聲音漸小直到我不停激烈抖動的身體安穩的又進入了另一個夢中夢>>>>

一隻小貓，一隻戴有紅色項圈很美的白貓，和一隻走失的貓。

心想我是多麼的迷戀那隻紅色項圈的白貓啊，

漂亮的毛色，優雅的走路方式，

還有一雙深情到彷彿光是注視著就可以勾人魂魄的眼睛。

在兩年前實驗室監視錄影帶的上傳影片中，

我終於找到了那隻走失的貓，

在畫面中她就這樣親暱的跟在貓博士的腳邊走著。

真希望貓博士不會對那隻走失的貓做出什麼事才好，

畢竟博士的惡名昭彰是大家都知道的事情啊！！

那隻走失的貓和妳之間好像有著什麼樣的關聯，

我迫切的想要找到那隻貓就如同尋找妳一樣。

右手輕撫著窩在腿上睡覺白貓的臉頰與下巴。

邊思考著下一步到底該怎麼辦。

「真該死！我沒有時間了！」

癱坐在辦公椅上，我順手抓起了自己的尾巴。

自己的尾巴？！

啊！！原來我就是貓博士啊！

而在看著鏡子驚訝不已的同時妳又消失地毫無蹤跡。

（為了找尋妳於是我又進入了另一個夢中夢－－－）

I Wish You Love ( Cover )

好餓。




I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all when snowflakes fall
I wish you love

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讓我告訴你們一個未知

一個沒有標明時間的樂曲與電影

以及一個永遠都醒不來的夢

我們沒有眼睛沒有耳朵也沒有嘴巴所以沒有語言

僅有的是音樂 隨著音樂改變形狀像是跳舞 但是沒有時間 只能慢慢感受

因愛的氣流與恨的氣流緩慢經過滲入流動淡出而愉悅與悲傷

唯有用盡全力的感受才能隨著氣流沒來由地笑與哭

就這樣的沒有時間 只能恍惚著搖晃漂浮

在2011.2.24凌晨零時下雨過後

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1. 幼稚園中班時候的下課時間，我在連結著兩座塑膠製城堡中央的橋上，被兩個女生各自猛烈的拉扯著要陪她們玩。在激動而暴力的軸線下，如同為了營造速度感而被剪輯斷裂的電影片段，我的圍兜兜也跟著一起應聲斷裂。

2. 為了我要裝網路而叫來的網路工程人員，他打開並且刺穿了一扇家裡從未開啟的窗，在天花板與牆邊釘上了許多帶有小塑膠圈的卡線鋼釘，家裡頓時被一條像是侵入身體的異物般的網路線入侵，如此頑固且張牙舞爪的寄生在體內。而在裝設完成的同時，我也深刻的體認到我一直都扮演著破壞這個家的角色。

3. 短片拍攝完成之後，我們仍然已上班族、花店女孩、攝影師、音樂人互稱。有那麼一瞬間我真的以為我們一起渡過了不存在的那些年。

4. 我有時候會感覺心中充滿著對所有人事物的愛，但大部分的時間都是沒有。

Mayonaise (Smashing Pumpkins cover )

小時候就好想彈這首歌，

沒有錄好過大概是本世紀最終版本。

Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June

We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plan
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

1979 (Smashing Pumpkins cover)

嗎啡城。

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
On a live wire right up off the street
You and I should meet

Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all

And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored
They're not sure just what we have in store
Morphine city slippin dues down to see

That we don't even care as restless as we are
We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement, lamented and assured

To the lights and towns below

Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope

Justine never knew the rules,
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made,

I know you better than you fake it

To see that we don't even care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

The street heats the urgency of sound
As you can see there's no one around

Luna[DEMO] (Smashing Pumpkins cover)

Demo，

就是沒有意外的話永遠都不會有完成品的意思。

What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?

Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?

I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along to be with you

And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through

I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you